"Wow....Peggy this one had to be a difficult one to do!!!!! What a sad experience.....and the impact it has held on you to this day!!!! Actions by those that we cared about at one time, can be so strong in our lives....and I wish for RESOLUTION....ACCEPTANCE....for you to be able to move on!!!!! It is not acceptance of their behavior...but acceptance of control in your life!!!! Do Not allow them to still hold a dark place in your heart.....you are in control and you have much more room for POSITIVE people who can fill you with LOVE!!!! The stitching of the title is awesome....the real pain...exudes from this LO!!!! I adore you...I support you.....I hold you close!!!! Sending you friendship and love across the seas to enrich you and your beautiful family!!!! "
Some of you commented that making this LO must have been therapeutic ... well, actually, it didn't help much. I liked making it though, the dark side of me really liked making this LO. I enjoyed making the page as grim as I knew how to, and drawing the skulls and putting them over their images, well, I must admit that just gave me an evil thrill and it actually put a smile on my face. So with making this LO, I didn't come any closer to accepting the situation, nor did I get rid of the hatred I feel. I actually felt pleasure making this LO, a fact that scares me a bit, but then again, not all that much ... I know I have this side to me, but I also know I have a warm and caring side to me as well ... a side which I reserve for people who I feel that deserve it.
However, I'll get to the point I want to make today before I start scaring everyone off LOL. Not the making of the LO, but he comments I have received have been therapeutic, more than I had imagined them to be. And especially the one from Jocelyn made me stop and think. I do have to take control, no one but me can let go of that hatred. Especially the sentence where she said I was allowing them to hold a dark place in my heart got to me ... I AM allowing them to still matter, I AM giving them the power to feel something I don't want to feel ... I had never looked at it that way, and it's definitely another way to look at things, this really opens a door for change, not of the situation itself, but a change to how I have to deal with this. I have been brooding too much about the how's and why's, which come to think of it really isn't all that important ... it is what it is, and I have to let it go and move on. Of course reading this comment hasn't gotten rid of the hate in my heart ... but it has given me hope that I just might overcome this, a way out of this negative spiral ... I realise know that it's up to me to change how I feel ... I've been acting like a victim in this whole situation, and realising that it's time to let go is a huge step in the right direction for me. Letting go will be the next ... this won't be easy, my emotions often get the better of me, but I will try to take control!
Thank you so much Jocelyn, you are a true friend. You gave me the following award the other day, and in accepting it I should list 10 things I love about blogging.
However, the one thing that surprised me and makes me want to come back for more and more, is the friendship I feel in the comments I receive. I really feel people care, and in return, I care for them. Some of your stories make me laugh, others make me cry, and some even make me lose some sleep worrying everything will be okay ... which is amazing in itself isn't it, caring so much for people you haven't even met in real life? And once in awhile, a comment like the one Jocelyn wrote to me has the ability to change lives ... now this would have to be the one thing I like best about blogging. Thank you so much my sweet friend, I can honestly say I love you!
Have you ever received a comment that changed your life, or that made you think about the path your taking? If so, please grab this award, leave me a link and share your story with me/us. I would love to hear how blogging has affected you!
Love xxx Peggy